Confessions

[gserj]

Probably, he is a robot. No questions for ara anymore.

[gserj]

The first time I heard someone say Armenians are not smart (he was not an odar but an Armenian-American academic whose judgment and integrity I had no reason to question) my initial reaction was not disbelief but outrage and derision. And even today, many years later, I find it difficult to say Armenians are dumb. If I don’t mind saying it now it may be because I have come to terms with my own limitations, prejudices, and blind spots. Needless to add, what I just said does not apply to those of my fellow Armenians who happen to be without limitations, prejudices, and blind spots.

Can a collection of barbarian tribes ever hope to achieve the status of a civilized nation on the grounds that sixteen centuries ago it converted to Christianity or a century ago it experienced genocide?

But nevertheless are you joking? I don't think society of Armenia consists of tribes. And how can representatives of one's nation be dumb?

[arabaliozian]

Thursday, March 27, 2008

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ON PROPAGANDA

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There is no such thing as an original propaganda line. All propaganda is derivative. All propaganda is not only a lie, but also a big lie, and not just a big lie but also a plagiarized lie. If propaganda works it’s because it flatters the ego, and vanity, it has been said, is an omnivorous as well as a ravenous monster. To the humiliated and degraded, propaganda says, “You are God’s chosen people.” To the scum of the earth, it says, “You belong to a superior race.” To the dumb, it says, “You are smart, and maybe even smarter than anyone else!” (“It takes seven Jews to fool an Armenian”). That may explain why our bosses, bishops, and benefactors are more popular than our intellectuals. In their effort to understand and explain reality, intellectuals are more interested in exposing contradictions than in flattering egos – contradictions that exist between the lies of propaganda and reality; contradictions between what our speechifiers and sermonizers tell us (“we are progressive, civilized, and smart”) and the popular phrase “mart bidi ch’ellank!”

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Friday, March 28, 2008

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AS I SEE IT

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“To serve is to rule.” All other forms of rule lead to oppression.

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In the eyes of our leadership, our greatest enemies are neither the Turks nor the Azeris, but the Armenian who thinks for himself.

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Nothing could be more naïve than to think if you read only Armenian sources, you can form a more or less balanced view of our history, culture, and identity, on the grounds that no one knows and understands Armenians better than an Armenian. My own impression is that when Armenian scholars write or speak publicly about Armenians, they stress only half of what they know and cover up or ignore the other half. But then, this is true not only of Armenians but also of all nations. Americans are known for their pragmatism and energy, Russians for their capacity to suffer, the French for their love of argument, the English for their cool, and the Italians for their excessive love of la dolce vita and bella figura. No nation is known for its love of truth.

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Freud once said that the aim of analysis is to replace hysterical misery with common unhappiness. If what I say depresses you, it may be because I deal with reality, and our reality is not exactly an invitation to joy.

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The saying “It takes seven Jews to fool an Armenian,” is to me less a compliment and more an insult, because its hidden message is a warning to all those who contemplate dealing with an Armenian in the marketplace to keep their eyes open or even to count their fingers after shaking hands with an Armenian.

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Speaking of identity: whenever I identify myself as an Armenian to a fellow Armenian, I immediately sense a note of caution in his body language, as if I were about to make unreasonable demands on him and force him to say, “Sorry, what you are asking me to do is against the law.”

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Saturday, March 29, 2008

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THE ROOT OF OUR PROBLEMS

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Our ghazetajis, sermonizers, and speechifiers have combined to create an atmosphere in which even the hint of dissent is equated with anti-Armenianism.

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In the eyes of some readers I seem to have developed a quality peculiarly unattractive in an Armenian, namely, an obstinate, perhaps even an obsessive, need to see not the best but the worst in us.

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Whenever I am urged to be more positive in my approach to our affairs, I immediately raise the question: To what extent our weakness for the positive has contributed to our status as victims? Consider our genocide as a case in point. To what extent the optimism of our revolutionaries and their blind faith in the verbal commitments of the Great Powers were contributing factors to the final catastrophe? To what extent our blind faith in the Kremlin contributed to our Soviet nightmare? To what extent our own chauvinist crapola (“we are smart, we are progressive, we are civilized”) contributes to our arrogance, dogmatism, intolerance, authoritarianism, divisiveness, fragmentation, and ultimately to our self-inflicted “white massacre”? It seems to me what we need is not a more positive approach to our affairs but the exact opposite.

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Naregatsi, our Dante and Shakespeare combined, did not see the best but the worst in himself, and by extension, in his fellow men. I suspect our need for optimism, far from being a solution, is at the very root of our problems.

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[arabaliozian]

Sunday, March 30, 2008

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DZOUR NESDINK, SHIDAG KHOSSINK

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We like to say that Israel and the U.S. are denialist states because they don’t want to offend a friendly nation in the Middle East, which happens to be a hornet’s nest of hostile tribes that threaten their vital economic interests or survival. What we don’t say is that nations that are on our side may also have unspoken political motives, which have little or nothing to do with what’s right and wrong. What we also hate to admit is that which even a major pro-Armenian historian like Toynbee has said, namely that we were wrong to make territorial claims on Turkey, because if every nation did that, the world would become an unrecognized place and many nations (including Israel and the U.S.) would lose their right to exist. It’s all politics? So what else is new? Was there ever a Golden Age in the history of mankind when nations behaved against their own interests or for purely idealistic reasons? What about our own political parties? If any one of them is righteous, upright, and honorable, why is it that so far it has failed to convince the other parties?

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Monday, March 31, 2008

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SHOUTS AND WHISPERS

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How does one humanize the dehumanized, especially if they are in denial of their condition?

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Armenian problems and their solutions: they have as long a history as Armenian literature. Perhaps I write to save myself and no one else. If I succeed, I may be an example to others. If I fail – and so far I have, like so many of my predecessors – I may be remembered by a handful of readers as a mental masturbator. But then, no one said being an Armenian writer was a win/win proposition.

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We are brought up to believe speaking of Turkish criminal conduct is a patriotic duty, but exposing our own violations of human rights is treason.

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Zola wrote only one “J’accuse.” Our Turcocentric ghazetajis write nothing else.

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Freedom means participation in power. The only freedom we have enjoyed since independence is to respond to Panchoonie’s S.O.S. of “mi kich pogh” in the Diaspora, and in the Homeland, to emigrate and riot.

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Because the shouts of my predecessors have dwindled to inaudible whispers, I am accused of being shrill.

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Tuesday, April 01, 2008

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IF THE SHOE FITS

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Since we can’t settle our score with the Turks, we call each other nasty names, preferably from a safe distance and anonymously.

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Politicians and lawyers share a tendency to make their side look all white and the opposition all black, which may explain why they are the least trusted people on earth. So much so that if you say, a lawyer or a politician told me the sun rises in the east, no one will believe you.

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To know how to read is not the same as knowing what deserves to be read.

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To be a commissar in a democracy or a nationalist in America is almost as bad as being a vegetarian among Armenians – meant to say, cannibals.

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Nothing can be more arrogant than to speak in the name of God, and since arrogance is an attribute of the devil, to speak in the name of God is almost as bad as speaking in the name of the devil.

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To believe means to believe only one side of the story even when you know there is another side. We believed historic Armenia to be ours. We believed the Great powers were on our side. We believed the Ottoman Empire was about to collapse and disappear. It is now time that we believe our believers less and our dissidents more.

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Armenians who believe in Mount Ararat and Vartan Mamikonian will believe anything.

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Wednesday, April 02, 2008

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NOTES & COMMENTS

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If you want to understand our past and the manner in which it has shaped our character and identity, read our writers, not our ghazetajis. What you get from our ghazetajis, especially the Turcocentric variant, is not history but political pornography whose aim is not to understand and explain but to propagandize and dehumanize.

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On more than one occasion I have been described as “controversial.” I reject the label. I maintain what’s controversial is our reality as it is perceived by our sermonizers and speechifiers.

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Sometimes the very same people we trust most deceive us; which could be rephrased as, because we trust them without reservation, they deceive us.

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If you don’t understand the lines, don’t try to read between them, because if you do, you may see things that are not there.

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A question to our editors and Turcocentric ghazetajis: If a member of your family is molested or raped, do you feel the need to speak of molesters and rapists every time you open your mouth? Why do you discuss Turks whenever you put pen to paper? Doesn’t the nation deserve the same degree of consideration as members of your own family?

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[arabaliozian]

Thursday, April 03, 2008

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FROM THE MEMOIRS OF HERCULES

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“Of all my labors, the hardest was separating an Armenian from his prejudices. After trying seven times and failing, I moved to less demanding undertakings, like moving mountains, draining seas, and capping volcanoes.”

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FROM A RECENT BIOGRAPHY OF ELGAR

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King Edward VII “was one of the more cultivated royals of recent centuries, displaying definite evidence of brain activity.”

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MEMO

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To the editor who suggested I write longer pieces if I want to be published in his weekly: “As a child I was exposed to countless longwinded sermons and speeches against sin and for patriotism. As an adult, whenever I begin to read a commentary, I seldom last beyond the first paragraph.”

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MEMO II

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To a reader who verbally abuses me from a safe distance and anonymously: “You don’t even have the courage and honesty to admit your cowardice, and you expect me to take what you say seriously?”

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DEFINITION

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Patriotism: “Love of God and Country, not to be confused with love of lies and propaganda.”

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Friday, April 04, 2008

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OF CABBAGES AND KINGS

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A headline in the SPECTATOR (London, March 2008) reads: “If God proved he existed, I still wouldn’t believe in him.” It seems to me, whenever bad things happen to good people, or the innocent are victimized, or evil triumphs, God (if he exists) is trying to prove to us that he doesn’t exist, or we can’t count on his existence, and that we should conduct our affairs as if he didn’t exist, and that our petitions and prayers will fall on deaf ears.

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To readers who are afraid that my kind of criticism in an open forum on the Internet may damage our image as a nation, I say: The Tourian assassination in 1933, and more recently, the terrorism of our so-called “freedom fighters,” and the riots of March 1 have done infinitely more harm to our image than all our past, present, and future critics combined if only because none of them so far has made a single headline in the international press. Compared to our kings who parade naked on Main Street, the voiceof our critics is more like the whisper of the kid in the crowd who says they have no clothes on.

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Saturday, April 05, 2008

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REFLECTIONS

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We survived 600 years under the sultans. We will be lucky if we survive that long under our own Ottomanized bosses and Stalinized commissars.

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One can become an addict of lies and propaganda as surely as to nicotine and opium.

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A true assertion, like a great work of art, paralyzes our critical faculties.

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In the same way that authority allows one to behave in an irresponsible manner, a high degree of intelligence allows one to blabber like an idiot.

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You don’t have to go out of your way to make enemies in our environment. All you have to do is state clearly and honestly what you think.

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One reason we are a failure as a nation is that we refuse to discuss our failings, and when someone dares to mention them, we make him feel as though he were insulting Mount Ararat, shish-kebab, and pilaf.

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[arabaliozian]

Sunday, April 06, 2008

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DECEPTION

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Nothing fascinates a man more than a woman, provided she is unattainable or she belongs to another man.

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The war described in the ILIAD by Homer was all about the abduction of a floozy.

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It is the ambition of every man to be taken seriously. The more ridiculous the man, the greater the ambition. Consider some of the most feared and influential names of the 20th century: Stalin, Hitler, Mussolini, Franco – the scum of the earth

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René Descartes on his critics: “Two or three flies,” whose books are good only as “toilet paper.”

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One should not behave like a fanatic even in one’s opposition to fanaticism.

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If the Pope is right (and he is never wrong, or so he wants us to believe) shall we then assume all other non-Catholic religious leaders to be usurpers and frauds?

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The aim of nationalist historians is to unite the nation in its hatred of the enemy.

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The reason why the 11the Commandment is not “Thou shalt not take anyone seriously,” is that Moses wanted to be taken seriously.

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According to Freud, Moses was an Egyptian because Moses is an Egyptian name and monotheism an Egyptian concept (see his MOSES AND MONOTHEISM). And according to many Hebrew scholars and rabbis, Freud, like Marx, was an anti-Semite, and Christ was a heretic and a blasphemer.

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Don’t get me wrong. I am not saying there are no honest men. What I am saying is that honest men are as marginalized as criminals.

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Wittgenstein: “The hardest thing in life is not deceiving oneself.”

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Monday, April 07, 2008

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WITTGENSTEIN, MARX, JESUS, & HITLER

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Wittgenstein was one of the most influential philosophers of the last century; and yet he advised his fellow philosophers to give up philosophy. On meeting the greatest literary critic of his time, he is quoted as having said, “Leavis, give up criticism.” Had he been an Armenian, I suspect he would have advised his fellow Armenians to give up Armenianism and be born-again as human beings, on the grounds that their so-called Armenianism is nothing but disguised Ottomanism.

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If Jesus and Marx had known the way future generations would abuse their teachings, they would have kept silent and we wouldn’t even know they ever existed.

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It is to be noted that Wittgenstein and Hitler were contemporaries and as boys went to the same school, but neither ever mentioned the other.

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There is nothing wrong in thinking you have all the answers as long as you are prepared to face the fact that all of them may well be wrong.

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An Armenian today nurses more wounds inflicted on him by his fellow Armenians than by Turks.

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Tuesday, April 08, 2008

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HOW DO WE SURVIVE AS A NATION?

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For the unemployed and the poor, questions of national identity might as well be irrelevant. What matters to them more than anything else is a good job. They want to work and provide for their families, and who can blame them? Entire continents today are populated by people who left their homeland and now live a more or less comfortable life in America and Australia. According to recent statistics, most of Europe is now populated by non-Europeans.

How do we survive as a nation?

By creating decent jobs in the Homeland would be one answer. By asking fewer dumb questions whose obvious answers we pretend not to know would be another.

And speaking of dumb questions, here is another one for you: what does the average Armenian-American philistine know about Armenian history and culture beside massacres, shish kebab and pilaf? How do we convince such an Armenian that our music, literature, and art are expressions of our identity and to ignore them is to promote assimilation?

How do we survive as a nation?

By behaving as a nation as opposed to a collection of unruly tribes led by bloodsuckers and gravediggers whose number one concern is number one.

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Samuel Johnson: “The chief glory of every people arises from its authors.”

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Unawareness of one’s failings is an infinitely more dangerous condition than Alzheimer’s.

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Whenever an angry reader unloads his inner filth on me, I can’t help thinking I must have hit paydirt.

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Where there is an honest man, there will also be holier-than-thou idiots who will call him an idiot.

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Wednesday, April 09, 2008

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COME AGAIN?

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In the March 29 issue of the ARMENIAN REPORTER (page A9) and in a commentary titled “Reflections on the state of contemporary Armenian politics” by Yeprem Mehranian, I read the following random paragraph: “The elemental principles of recursive thinking necessitate that in order to explore the depths of social processes of change we allow the past and the present to reciprocate, and then to use results of this interaction to guide us closer toward the point of comprehending reality.”

I don’t know about you, but speaking for myself, I consider inflicting this kind of prose on an unsuspecting public fully qualifies as a clear-cut case of man’s inhumanity to man. If Armenian readers don’t rise in self-defense against this type of verbal abuse, it may be because they come from a long line of victims and they are more or less reconciled to their status as perennial underdogs.

In the same issue of the REPORTER and on page B5 there is a photo of a man seated at the organ with both hands on the lowest of three manuals. The caption reads: “Maestro Mekanejian tunes the cathedral’s organ in preparation for Holy Week.” Maestro Mekanejian is doing nothing of the kind. What Maestro Mekanejian is doing is practicing. The tuning of an organ is done in a separate room where the pipes are housed.

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Julius Caesar: “In writing, one should avoid an unfamiliar word as a ship avoids a reef.”

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[arabaliozian]

Thursday, April 10, 2008

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RISING FROM THE ASHES

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Just when our philistines begin to rejoice in the knowledge that they have been successful in burying our literature, some damn fool comes along and tells them, “Not so fast, friends!”

When in the midst of a catastrophic defeat, John Paul Jones said “I have not yet begun to fight,” an unnamed Marine is quoted as having remarked: “There is always one son of a bitch who never gets the word.” I may well be that s.o.b.

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If time is on your side, you can afford to be patient.

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Neither Socrates nor Jesus wrote a single line. Why? My guess is, they knew that politicians and lawyers could misinterpret the written word to mean the exact opposite of what they say.

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If some day we rise from the ashes of degradation, it will be by means of reason and objectivity. To equate objectivity with self-loathing is therefore the same as equating reason with insanity. Reason is a gift and a blessing. It is not a curse. Objectivity is an asset, not a liability.

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The secret of life is not coming to terms with the inevitable but using it as a springboard. Not easy, you say. Who said life in a rotten world was going to be easy?

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Friday, April 11, 2008

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FOOD FOR THOUGHT

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In his latest collection of essays, HOLD EVERYTHING DEAR: DISPATCHES ON SURVIVAL AND RESISTANCE (New York, 2007) John Berger writes that Nazim Hikmet was so tall that he was nicknamed “the Tree with blue eyes.” We are further informed that he wrote half of his life’s work in prison.

They imprisoned their best in the name of Ataturk; we killed ours in the name of Stalin.

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It is not always easy to separate what we think from what we were told to think.

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Perhaps what I have been doing is writing fragments of our story or that of a nation that has been committing slow-motion suicide – a story whose aim is to convince our denialists who refuse to see the obvious by reason of our Oedipus complex (when reality is against you, blind yourself) and Ottomanization.

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Saturday, April 12, 2008

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A WONDERFUL BOOK

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Paul Johnson’s HEROES (New York, 2007, 299 pages) is an eminently readable collection of profiles in courage from Alexander the Great and Julius Caesar to Churchill and De Gaulle. The reader will find here many insightful observations and entertaining anecdotes. Here is a typical paragraph: “The last celebrity executed in public at the Tower of London was Lord Lovat, hanged for his part in the 1745 rebellion of Bonnie Prince Charlie. Lovat, aged eighty-two, kept alive the tradition that a great man died with spirit. On his way to the scaffold, a hag screamed out: ‘They’re going to hang ye, ye old Scotch do,’ to which he replied: ‘I believe they will, ye old English bitch.’"

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Once in a while gentle readers take it upon themselves to remind me that I am going about it the wrong way, I am a failure, and I will never amount to anything. They may be right. I suppose our options are limited: we either fail like a dog or succeed like a bitch.

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[arabaliozian]

PRESS RELEASE / NEW BOOK

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ARA BALIOZIAN IN FRENCH

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Paris: A new book by Ara Baliozian titled PERTINENTES / IMPERTINENCES has just come out in a French translation by Mireille Besnilian, Denis Donikian, and Dalita Roger. It is a collection of his most recent observations and reflections on our history and the manner in which it has shaped our character and identity as a nation.

Ara Baliozian was born in Athens, Greece, and educated in Venice, Italy. Widely published in English and Armenian, he has been awarded many prizes and grants for his literary work in several genres. His books include THE GREEK POETESS AND OTHER WRITINGS, ARMENIA OBSERVED: AN ANTHOLOGY, FRAGMENTED DREAMS: ARMENIANS IN DIASPORA, and the best-selling study, THE ARMENIANS: THEIR HISTORY AND CULTURE. His translations of such Armenian classics as Grigor Zohrab, Zabel Yessayan, and Kostan Zarian have been described as “valuable,” “eloquent,” and “brilliant” contributions to world literature. “I read everything Ara Baliozian writes with fascination and gratitude,” William Saroyan has said.

The book can be ordered from Denis Donikian at [email protected] in France, and from Mkrtich Matevosian at [email protected] in Armenia. ($20.00 includes postage and handling).

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[arabaliozian]

Sunday, April 13, 2008

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THE BOOK THAT CHANGED MY LIFE: 71 Remarkable Writers Celebrate The Books That Matter Most To Them. Edited by Roxanne J. Coady & Joy Hogannessen. 197 pages. (New York, 2006).

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“The book that has meant the most to me in my life,” writes Bernie S. Siegel, a medical doctor and a prolific author, “is THE HUMAN COMEDY by William Saroyan.” Two pages of explanations follow. “Perhaps the most important words in Saroyan’s book for me were these: ‘But try to remember that a good man can never die…. The person of a man may leave -- or be taken away—but the best part of a good man stays. It stays forever. Love is immortal and makes all things immortal. But hate dies every minute.’” Elsewhere he paraphrases another one of Saroyan’s ideas: “The evil man must be forgiven and loved because something of us is in him and something of him is in us.” He concludes with the words: “If every child were brought up with the words spoken in THE HUMAN COMEDY, the world would be a very different place.”

Another writer included in this collection of essays is Christ Bohjalian, who chooses not one but several books by such best-selling writers as Stephen King, William Peter Blatty, Peter Benchley, Thomas Tryon, Harper Lee, and Joyce Carol Oates.

Speaking for myself, the two books that changed my life are Dostoevsky’s THE IDIOT and Turgenev’s FATHERS AND SONS.

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Monday, April 14, 2008

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MORE ON SAROYAN

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In THE BOOK THAT CHANGED MY LIFE (discussed yesterday), Senator Joe Lieberman names the Bible, after identifying himself as “a religiously observant Jew whose life has been shaped by the faith and commandments contained in the Bible,” and immediately after the Bible, he names William Saroyan. “As a child,” he writes, “I loved the books of William Saroyan for their faraway ethnic richness, idealism, and humanity."

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More contemporary writers have been influenced by Saroyan than by Henry James and James Joyce combined, probably because Saroyan made writing as easy as a walk in the park. I have read many interviews with contemporary writers and the name that comes up as an early influence more than any other is that of Saroyan.

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I first read Saroyan as a teenager. What fascinated me about him was the ease with which he connected. Compared to him, Henry James and Joyce seem to take pleasure in raising impenetrable walls between themselves and their readers.

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Critics have attacked Saroyan for his naïve sentimentality and unwillingness to confront the dark side of life; they also saw his phenomenal international success as a liability. Who reads Saroyan today? Once in a while I pick up one of his books and try to reread a page or two, and what was fresh and full of life when I first read him now seems cliché-ridden and infantile. Critics are not always wrong.

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Tuesday, April 15, 2008

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ON IMPERIALISM

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Of all human enterprises the most despicable, cruel, and criminal is that of building, running, and defending an empire. And yet, we all admire Alexander the Great, Caesar, and Napoleon.

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When I understood nothing, I pretended to know everything. Now that I know one or two things, I understand nothing.

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DUPES

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A perennial victim will also be a perennial dupe of lies and propaganda.

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FOOLS

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A fool, being a fool, will convince himself of anything, including being wise.

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ARMENIAN CONTROVERSIES

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Following an argument in an Armenian discussion forum is “like floating down a sewer in a glass-bottomed boat.”

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THE BLIND LEADING THE BLIND

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If Wellington is right and “the secret of success in war is learning what lies on the other side of the hill,” then we have no choice but to assume that we have been at the mercy of blind men.

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ON THE ORIGINS OF DENIALISM

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To quote Wellington again: “A battle is like a ball. Everybody sees something. Nobody sees everything.”

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ON BEING POSITIVE

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The more brainwashed a man is, the more unshakable his convictions will be.

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BOOMERANG

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To exile or deport people against their will is to sow dragon teeth.

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Wednesday, April 16, 2008

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FROM MY NOTEBOOKS

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We like to say that capitalism defeated communism, but in reality it was communism that did the job. Ideologies, like nations and civilizations, are not killed, they commit suicide.

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If you feel more or less comfortable in your conception of reality, be prepared for a rude awakening.

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The trouble with assessing yourself as smart is that you will go on assessing yourself as smarter than someone else, and after that, as smarter than anyone else.

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The mirage of happiness is the greatest source of misery.

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A fraction of a second is also a fraction of eternity.

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[arabaliozian]

Friday, April 18, 2008

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PRESS RELEASE

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VOYAGES EGARÉS (Meandering Journeys). By Denis Donikian. Bilingual edition (French/Armenian). Armenian translations by Nvard Vardanian. 132 pages. Yerevan: Actual Art. 2008 ($20.00 including postage).

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From Homer to James Joyce, the quest of Ulysses or the search for self-discovery has been a central theme in the literature of the West. It is this very same search that Denis Donikian undertakes in this elegantly produced volume of elegiac and multilayered prose poems. The book is divided into seven sections subtitled “Chronicles of Captive Years,” “Impediments (fragments),” “Meandering Journeys,” “Symptoms,” “Deviations,” “Persecuted Reasons,” “To His Brother.” The translations by Nvart Vartanian (who has also translated Proust, René Char, and Lautréamont) are so faithful to the original that this volume could serve as an ideal text for readers who would like to hone their linguistic skills in French and Armenian.

Denis Donikian is a prolific poet, essayist, multimedia artist, and journalist.

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VOYAGES EGARES : http://www.denisdonikian.com/vyagesegares2.htm

[arabaliozian]

Thursday, April 17, 2008

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DIARY

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The only way to survive in our environment is to flatter the ego of someone with deep pockets. Honesty is anathema in a kleptocracy, plutocracy, and oligarchy, each with its own impenetrable wall of brown-nosing bureaucrats.

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The opposite of love is not hatred but indifference. Likewise, the opposite of being right is not being wrong but being self-righteous. A fool is always self-righteous, never right.

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Napoleon on Talleyrand: “Shit in silk stockings.”

Talleyrand’s career lasted long after Napoleon’s came to an end. Which may suggest that in politics, crap travels farther than any other ingredient.

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Saturday, April 19, 2008

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ON THE ORIGINS OF OUR CANNIBALISM

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Some of the e-mails I get from my self-assessed “patriotic” and “smart” readers (self-assessed, of course) are so offensive that I cannot help thinking a nation that is capable of producing such rifraff and scum faces insurmountable problems.

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The problem with an Armenian assessing himself as smart is that sooner or later and inevitably he will run across another Armenian who has assessed himself as smarter than he, and that’s when the excrement will hit the ventilator.

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Revolutions against tyrants generate worse tyrants. Hence the saying “mart bidi ch’ellank.”

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[gserj]

What is opposite of hatred?

[Kars]

Mr. Baliozian is well known among akhpar circles of Northern America, as a writer and as a profound Armenian-basher. Which is fine, I guess – considering akhpar mentality. We can always live with that.

Whatever. I’m surprised places like day.az and other Turkic sites haven’t discovered this genius yet. I am sure, they could get a nice interview, and further downgrade our people –doing which, no doubt, Mr. Beliozian will feel more proud and more proclaimed.

For example, Turks have long ago discovered Mr. Vahe Avetyan – another crooked “discerner” of Armenian reality.

[arabaliozian]

Mr. Baliozian is well known among akhpar circles of Northern America, as a writer and as a profound Armenian-basher. Which is fine, I guess – considering akhpar mentality. We can always live with that.

Whatever. I’m surprised places like day.az and other Turkic sites haven’t discovered this genius yet. I am sure, they could get a nice interview, and further downgrade our people –doing which, no doubt, Mr. Beliozian will feel more proud and more proclaimed.

For example, Turks have long ago discovered Mr. Vahe Avetyan – another crooked “discerner” of Armenian reality.

i will respect you more if you write under your own name. but as you choose to hide behind an anonymous or false identify i shall have to dismiss what you say as the contemptible words of a coward. / ara

[arabaliozian]

Thursday, April 24, 2008

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BOOK REVIEW

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THE GENOCIDE OF TRUTH. By Sukru Server Aya. 702 pages. Illustrated. Index. Bibliography. Istanbul: Commerce University Publications. 2008.

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This mammoth compilation of quotations, documents, and polemics sets out to prove once and for all that the Armenian genocide is a figment of imagination, but it succeeds only in proving that the Turks take this figment very seriously.

In his introduction, the author (born in 1930) admits that he first heard of the Genocide in the 1970s when Armenians unleashed a campaign of terror by assassinating more than forty innocent Turkish diplomats. What he fails to mention is that on April 24, 1915, at least four times as many Armenian intellectual leaders in Istanbul, among them some of the most beloved names in modern Armenian literature, were arrested, declared guilty on grounds of their Armenian identity, condemned to death, and executed. He further maintains that the so-called “million and a half” were victims not of a state-sponsored policy of extermination but of badly executed deportations, war, atrocities committed by Kurdish and Circassians bandits, starvation, and disease, all of which claimed many more Turkish victims. It follows, if the Turkish state cannot be held responsible for these crimes, the Armenians have no case. Again, he fails to mention the fact that the properties of the deported Armenians are now in the hands of the Turkish state. Even if not guilty of factors beyond their control, the Turks are guilty of occupying properties that rightly belong to their original owners.

Considerable space is devoted to the discussion of Toynbee’s youthful anti-Turkish stance. What is not mentioned is that even after he acquired Turkish friends and adopted a pro-Turkish stance, Toynbee at no time denied the reality of the Genocide, which he equated with the Jewish holocaust during World War II.

If like me you were born and raised in an alien ghetto populated by Armenian survivors, this book will fail to convince you that everything you were told as a child by your parents, grandparents, schoolteachers, and community leaders was propaganda. But if you are a Turk born and raised in an environment where even uttering the words “Armenian genocide” is considered a criminal offense, the book will succeed in reinforcing your conviction that as a morally upright people, Turks cannot be held guilty of any crime against humanity, let alone genocide, and that all their accusers are no better than misguided and brainwashed dupes, fanatics, charlatans, and profiteers. To which I can only say, all nations produce their share of jackals and hyenas and I doubt very much if Turks are immune to these universal aberration.

At one point Aya suggests that the Genocide may well boil down to stories told by grandmothers, implying they could hardly qualify as admissible evidence. Which raises the question: If you had a choice between believing the eyewitness account of a grandmother and the hearsay evidence of a politician with an ax to grind, whom would you choose to believe – especially if the grandmother’s stories were supported by countless articles in the international press some of which have now been collected and published in book form.

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Aya writes: “Armenians are among the most monolithically acting people in the world today.” This assertion is contradicted by the fact that some of his most important denialist sources are of Armenian descent. He further accuses Armenians of being intolerant of dissent. As a result, he writes, the extremists are heard ad nauseam and the moderates are silenced. But isn’t that the case with Turks too? If Turks, unlike Armenians, are tolerant of dissent, why is it that Orhan Pamuk (a Nobel-prize winning novelist and essayist) and Taner Akcam (a distinguished academic), both of whom have dared to write about the taboo subject of the Armenian genocide, now live in self-imposed exile?

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The Turks have made their state archives available to scholars, Aya informs us elsewhere, but the Armenians have consistently refused to do so. Speaking of Ottoman documents that support the reality of the Genocide, he dismisses all of them as forgeries, implying the documents in the Ottoman archives supporting his thesis have not been selected, manipulated, edited, and doctored in any way.

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Genocide books (both pro and con) change no one’s mind. They only preach to the choir and the Allawa akbar corner.

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If there is a moral to be drawn here, it is this: politics is a filthy business, writing history a complex operation, and propaganda the universal medium of all power structures, especially those that view themselves as morally superior.

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Both Armenians and Turks are unanimous in asserting that the truth must be established and the controversy surrounding the Genocide must be resolved once and for all, even as one side continues to criminalize all mention of the Genocide, and the other to build monuments and museums, produce documentaries and movies, organize demonstrations and symposia, and publish an endless stream of books, editorials, commentaries, and polemics. As a result, both sides continue to be polarized with no end in sight. I regret to say the book under review succeeds only in contributing to this unfortunate process of polarization thus making the prospect of a resolution unlikely, perhaps even impossible.

Finally, here are some questions that Aya’s magnum opus raises:

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Is there a single nation in the history of mankind that has fabricated a genocide and believed in it for almost a century? – more than a century, as a matter of fact, if one includes the Hamidian massacres at the turn of the last century.

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Why is defending the borders of a disintegrating and rotten empire (perceived as such even by Turks) with every means at one’s disposal politically justifiable and Armenian desire for self-determination a crime against humanity? – unless of course one subscribes to the principle of might is right or what’s mine is mine and what’s yours is mine also.

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Who in his right mind would dare to assert that Ottoman imperialism or Kemalist nationalism is right or acceptable but Armenian irredentism a capital offense?

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[arabaliozian]

Sunday, April 27, 2008

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ONE-LINERS

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Knowledge is for the wise, bliss for the ignorant.

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Ideas have heads but no bodies. Propaganda has body but no head - that's why it appeals to the brainless.

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If the kingdom of god is within us, so is the empire of the devil.

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After Socrates was tried, found guilty, and condemned to death, a mother was heard saying to her son: "This is what happens to disobedient boys."

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Memo to a Turkish denialist: "Not every Armenian born and raised on Ottoman soil is a compulsive and habitual liar."

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Monday, April 28, 2008

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BETWEEN POLARIZATION AND CONSENSUS

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The Turkey will not accede to Armenian demands even if it means never qualifying as a member of the EU for the simple reason that they stand to lose much more to the Armenians than profit from the Europeans; and the Armenians will never accept a simple apology for the even simpler reason that they consider it a worthless exercise in empty verbiage, and who can blame them? The obvious answer to this impasse is compromise, and the first step is a moratorium on all talk surrounding the controversy.

Before you say or write anything therefore ask yourself: will my words contribute to polarization or consensus?

Polarization is not an option because it depletes valuable resources and benefits neither side. This is true not only of Turks and Armenians but of all divisions and controversies in general regardless of race, color, and creed.

One does not have to be a prophet to predict that sometime in the near or distant future all the nations and tribes of the Middle East will realize that it is to their advantage to follow the example of the U.S. and the EU and live in peace and prosperity in a United States of the Middle East. This may happen around the same time that hell freezes over but it is bound to happen. Establishing who did what do whom is therefore not as important as what's the course of action that will benefit both sides.

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Thomas Fuller (17th-century English clergyman): "He that has no fools, knaves nor beggars in his family was begot by a flash of lightning."

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Ralph Waldo Emerson (19th-century American essayist): "All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better."

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Tuesday, April 29, 2008

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FROM MY NOTEBOOKS

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A convincing explanation is one that flatters our vanity.

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A dogma is an assertion in search of its contradiction.

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The more intolerant a man is, the more tolerant of humbug he will be.

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In a letter to the editor in our local paper I read the following: “The essence of democracy is the lone individual, protected and defended by law, against all injustice perpetrated by another individual, group, or government.” I should like to see such a sentence written by an Armenian.

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One of the worst calamities that has befallen on Armenians after the Genocide is the Turcocentric ghazetaji who has conspired with his counterpart,the Turkish denialist, to reduce our Tragedy to a game of political football.

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Wednesday, April 30, 2008

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WHAT WE NEED

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We need editorials and commentaries that will remind us there is no such thing as freedom without freedom of speech, and that fear of free speech is the worst kind of cowardice.

We need psychologists who will analyze our phobias, expose the roots of our internecine conflicts, and the effects of long centuries of political oppression.

We need historians who will explain without nationalist or ideological bias what happened and why.

We need philosophers who will expose our contradictions and the gulf that exists between our propaganda and reality.

We need sociologists who will tell us the difference between a functional and a dysfunctional social order.

We need political scientists who will explain the difference between authoritarian and democratic power structures.

We need dissidents who will inform us that our speechifiers, sermonizers, and Turcocentric pundits are not in the business of solving problems but in perpetuating them.

We need literary critics who will tell us the central theme of our literature from Khorenatsi and Naregatsi to Raffi and Zarian has been our problems and their solutions.To say therefore “We need solutions,” is to admit total ignorance of our literature.

Most important of all, we need gentlemen who will say, “Gentlemen, let us behave more like gentlemen!”

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[arabaliozian]

Thursday, May 01, 2008

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READING

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While reading THE ROUGH GUIDE TO FILM NOIR by Alexander Ballinger and Danny Graydon (New York, 2007) I am surprised to note that two of my favorite noirs – THE ROARING TWENTIES and ANGELS WITH DIRTY FACES, both with Jimmy Cagney, are not even mentioned.

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Sidney Sheldon’s THE OTHER SIDE OF ME: A MEMOIR (New York, 2005) reads more like fiction than autobiography. Orwell is right: “autobiography is the most outrageous form of fiction.”

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Edmund Wilson’s review of Saroyan’s 1946 World War II novel, THE ADVENTURES OF WESLEY JACKSON, is included in his LITERARY ESSAYS AND REVIEWS OF THE 1930s &1940s (New York, 2007). Its final sentence reads: “This is surely some of the silliest nonsense ever published by a talented writer.” Elsewhere (page 498) Wilson described Saroyan as “an agreeable mixture of San Francisco bonhomie and Armenian Christianity”—whatever that may mean (one is tempted to ask what the hell does Wilson know about Armenian Christianity?) Wilson is far more to the point when speaking of THE TIME OF YOUR LIFE, he observes “…[saroyan] achieves the feat of making and keeping us boozy without the use of alcohol and purely by the stimulus of art.”

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In an illustrated article in LE POINT (Paris, April 10, 2008) Larry Gagosian, 62, is described as a “silver-haired playboy,” the offspring “of a modest family of Armenian origin in Los Angeles,” “a ‘killer’ in business deals,” and the multimillionaire owner of three art galleries in New York, two in London, one in Beverly Hills, and another in Rome.

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Friday, May 02, 2008

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ON POLITICS & POLITICIANS

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There exists a wall between Turks and Armenians not because Turks and Armenians hate one another but because so far both sides have been at the mercy of politicians, that is to say, full-time professionals hate-promoters.

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Politicians are megalomaniacs who are not masters of their own destiny but who think they can shape the fate of nations.

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The Iron Curtain fell, the Berlin Wall was demolished, and if the Chinese Wall stands today it stands only as an expensive and useless relic.

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The birth of imperialism: if this mountain is ours, so is the valley next to it. It follows, so is the river that irrigates the valley, and so is the source of the river.

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If Martin Luther King had been an Armenian, he would have said, “I have a nightmare!”

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Have I said this before? No matter. Everything that’s worth saying is worth repeating.

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Saturday, May 03, 2008

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ON THE HUMAN CONDITION

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Like an insect caught in a spider’s web, we live in an invisible network of human relationships and values, which existed long before we were born. The more freely we move in this environment, the more certain our fate of being captured and immobilized.

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Desmond Tutu: “To forgive is not just to be altruistic. It is the best form of self-interest.” If this were true, all prisons would be abolished.

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I once asked a theologian what he thought of Gandhi’s definition of God as Truth, and he said Gandhi’s definition was empty verbiage. That’s when I lost all respect for theologians.

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Cary Grant: “Everyone wants to be Cary Grant. Even I want to be Cary Grant.”

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To my denialist Turkish friends I say: Never trust the word of a state that criminalizes free speech, because to do so amounts to saying yes to violations of a fundamental human right.

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[gserj]

If Martin Luther King had been an Armenian, he would have said, “I have a nightmare!”

Гы.

Like an insect caught in a spider’s web, we live in an invisible network of human relationships and values, which existed long before we were born. The more freely we move in this environment, the more certain our fate of being captured and immobilized.

То есть он косвенно признает, что он ахпар.

[arabaliozian]

Sunday, May 04, 2008

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REFLECTIONS

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There are two ways to resolve a conflict: with the brain or with the gut. Human history may be said to be a tribute to the gut.

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When I recycled nationalist propaganda, I at no time identified it as such. Self-deception begins with our choice of vocabulary.

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Our nationalist historians tend to write what their readers would like to read. Not being dependent on our goodwill, odar historians can afford to be more objective and say things that may not be flattering to our collective ego. That’s one reason why I now find our historians unreadable.

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My best readers are those who hate to read me because they find my ideas threatening to their comfortable view of life.

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When you assess yourself, the chances are you will stress the positives. When others do the assessing, they will stress your negatives. The question then becomes: Who will be closer to the truth, which is more a point of reference and direction rather than an accessible and fixed concept.

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Plot for a science fiction novel: 2984 AD. Overpopulation on the planet is such that even mild transgressions like spitting, swearing, or driving a fraction of a mile over the speed limit are considered capital offenses and punished on the spot by law enforcement brigades.

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Monday, May 05, 2008

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ON ANALYSIS

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Even after the triumphs of ZAPATA, STREETCAR, ON THE WATERFRONT and EAST OF EDEN, writes Elia Kazan in his memoirs – ELIA KAZAN: A LIFE (New York, 1998) – he felt like a failure. So much so that he sought the help of a psychiatrist. He further writes that, the reason why Brando accepted to do WATERFRONT on location in New Jersey was that his analyst was in New York and he needed to see him every day.

Kazan’s final films are disasters. Brando’s films as well as private life became progressively worse. What a book one could write on the failures of analysis in America. Sartre is right: Freudian analysis, especially in its American context, has no principles. Its aim is to adjust patients to an essentially insane social order. As a result, instead of getting better they get worse. I shiver to think what would have happened to Tolstoy and Dostoevsky had they lived in 20th-century America instead of 19th-century Russia.

Kazan traces the roots of his neurosis to his Ottoman background. The only way for a Greek to survive in Istanbul was by being a sycophant and a coward, he writes, and most of his life, even in America, he was both. Elsewhere he explains that the massacres were the work not of Turkish neighbors but of outsiders who believed “you enter heaven and enjoy a beautiful houri according to how many unbelievers you’ve killed.” When he visits Turkey later in life, men line up to shake and sometimes even to kiss his hand. Comments Kazan: “I had to remind myself that my people had lived here in terror and were lucky to have escaped alive.”

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Tuesday, May 06, 2008

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AS I SEE IT

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People are not interest to know how smart you are but how smart you think they are.

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I was brought up to believe we were white and they were black, until I realized there is neither white nor black, only shades of gray.

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Propaganda thrives in an environment where freedom of speech is a privilege only of the ruling classes.

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Parallels: those who declare wars and those who die in them…the misguided fools who rise against an empire and the defenseless, law-abiding civilians who are massacred…

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When the going gets tough, the tough get going. As for the semi-tough: they are better at hiding, speechifying, and editorializing.

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Wednesday, May 07, 2008

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ONE-LINERS

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We cannot understand that which we hate,

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A military defeat is also a blunder.

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Everyone sympathizes with victims except their victimizers.

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The first condition of patriotism is to dehumanize the enemy.

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A fool is an open book. He confesses even as he attempts to cover up.

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All power structures, even the most democratic, depend on the ignorance of the majority.

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If I were to write what is expected of me, I would probably enjoy both popularity and respect, but I would have nothing but contempt for myself.

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When I said, “The rich are going to die as surely as the poor,” my friend replied: “Yes, but the poor die every day.”

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[arabaliozian]

Thursday, May 08, 2008

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KAZAN IN ISTANBUL

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While in Istanbul, Kazan writes in his memoirs (ELIA KAZAN: A LIFE, page 548), “I was heralded as the famous man from Anatolia who denied absolutely that he was Armenian. There was no mention that I was a Greek.”

Speaking of a recent riot, a fellow Greek explains: “They [the authorities] brought several hundred criminals from the interior, gave them plenty raki, the cheap kind, a bottle to each man, put them on the boat to Istanbul, and told them, ‘Go ahead, the city is yours. Take what you want, so long as it’s Greek or Armenian.’” (page 550). Elsewhere (page 558) Kazan quotes an angry Greek woman saying: “They [Turks] are animals, who tasted our blood many times and want more, like animals.”

The scandal is not that criminals behave like criminals, with the blessings of the authorities, but that respectable men say, such things don’t happen in a civilized country like Turkey. And I doubt very much if the orders to riot, or any other relevant documents, are housed in state archives for future scholars who specialize in the study of riots.

Riots happen everywhere, of course, even in the most civilized countries in the world. But I doubt very much if they do so with the encouragement and authorization of the state for the simple reason that as a rule riots in civilized countries are spontaneous eruptions by minorities against the state.

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Friday, May 09, 2008

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MEMO

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After reading some of my critical articles, a Turkish friend assumes I have Kemalist sympathies. This is the very same mistake Armenian readers make when they accuse me of anti-Armenianism. If I am critical of intolerance, that doesn’t mean I am for Turkish or any other kind of intolerance.

Half-truths and lies come in all colors, sizes, and shapes and they are equally pernicious.

All ideologies and religions come with good intentions. Their true aim is to expand human consciousness by making us aware of the fact that we are not the alpha and omega of existence. But eventually they degenerate into closed systems by pretending to be the alpha and omega of human perception. That’s when critics and dissidents take it upon themselves to remind us we have been duped into thinking truth or god is on our side.

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Saturday, May 10, 2008

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GREED

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Literary prizes and grants: I have had my share of them, but mostly from Canadian sources. If I am ever awarded an Armenian prize

I will say: “I accept the cash but I reject the honor.”

The trouble with our organizations (and the bosses, bishops and benefactors who control them) is that they are interested in art and I am interested only in money.

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To be verbally abused by riffraff is almost to be praised.

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To join a party and to view the opposition as the source of all evil must be an irresistible temptation to all simple-minded dupes.

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Why is it that we like to explain and justify our shortcomings by mentioning the shortcomings of others? Imagine if you can a murderer or thief pleading not guilty in a court of law on grounds that all nations have their share of murderers and thieves.

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[arabaliozian]

Sunday, May 11, 2008

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DEPRESSING OBSERVATIONS

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Our Turcocentric ghazetajis are interested in Armenians only as victims of Turks, which is a what’s done is done and cannot be undone situation. I too am interested in Armenians as victims but only as victims of fellow Armenians, which is an ongoing process. We cannot resurrect the dead but we can remind our dividers that a house divided against itself cannot stand; and whereas the Turks had a reason for trying to exterminate us, they (our bosses and bishops) have none!

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Life is short, art long, and trash abundant. The very least we can do is not to add to the abundance.

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The most pernicious prejudice is to think that we have none.

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To commit a blunder – nothing easier. To admit it – nothing more difficult.

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Monday, May 12, 2008

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FIRST LINES

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SPEECH

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Ladies and Gentlemen:

Like you, I too was exposed to a great many sermons and speeches in my formative years. I know something I didn’t know then: they were all empty verbiage. Assuming we have a question here, what is the answer? I have no idea. I think Naregatsi (our Dante and Shakespeare combined) came close to a tentative answer when he decided to spend the rest of his life in a monastery meditating on his failings.

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CONFESSIONS

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I have been a source of disappointment to a great many people, beginning with myself. This may explain why I may never deliver a speech or write a memoir.

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ON REVISIONISM

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At the turn of the last century, the Ottoman Empire was like a wounded tiger: in its effort to assure its own survival, it struck indiscriminately at those it saw as its enemies without making an effort to separate the innocent from the guilty. What’s uppermost in the mind of a Turkish revisionist today is the memory of the wound rather than the innocent victims.

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Tuesday, May 13, 2008

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THE CIRCASSIAN CONTRIBUTION

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W.H. Auden: “Those to whom evil is done / Do evil in return.”

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In the 19th century Russia conducted a long genocidal war against the Muslim tribes of the Caucasus. Armenians played a key role in this campaign as negotiators, translators, and soldiers. When the war was over, the defeated Caucasian tribes took refuge in Turkey. It was the offspring of these survivors for whom revenge is an article of faith and a religious commandment who in 1915 joined forces with the Kurds to massacre Armenians.

For more on the Russian campaign in the Caucasus, see Lesley Blanch’s SABRES OF PARADISE, and Tolstoy’s HADJI MURAD. This second is a work of historical fiction based on documented facts written near the end of Tolstoy’s life. Lesley Blanch’s fascinating work is a thoroughly researched study and the only historical work I have read and enjoyed three times.

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Wednesday, May 14, 2008

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ASKING QUESTIONS

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What do they know of the Genocide if only the Genocide know? To fully understand something, anything, it is necessary to know and understand many other things. Historic occurrences are like plants with deep roots some of which may go back to the beginning of time.

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Why is it that we never get tired of speaking of what they did to us but we at no time ask, why is it that we made ourselves vulnerable? Is it because we may not like the answer? Is it because if we understood the answer we may no longer be justified in assuming a holier-than-thou stance? And worse, much worse! Is it because if we understood the answer we would also understand that what they did to us we are doing to ourselves? – that is to say, committing our own brand of “jermag chart” (white slaughter) on two fronts – assimilation in the Diaspora and exodus from the Homeland? Why is it that when it comes to our own incompetence, corruption, dogmatism, intolerance, and divisions, we like to speak of “social and cultural conditions beyond our control”? What is the difference between their denialism and our own? Why this stubborn refusal to face facts and accept responsibility? Am I making assertions I cannot prove? No, I am only asking questions.

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[SAS]

Гы.

То есть он косвенно признает, что он ахпар.

Իսկ դուք ի՞նչ եք հասկանում "ախպար" բառի տակ, որ այդպես զարմացած եք: Ախպեր, ախպար, ապեր,ապե, ապ՝ նշանակում է եղբայր:Կարծում եք թե դա ինչ-որ ուրիշ ազգությո՞ւն է...

Edited May 14, 2008 by SAS

[Kars]

Մի կողմից զարմանալի է, մյուսից՝ ոչ, որ SAS-ը շարունակում է իրեն էշի տեղ դնել:

Ցանկալի կլիներ շարունակել նույն ոճով:

[gserj]

<br />Իսկ դուք ի՞նչ եք հասկանում &quot;ախպար&quot; բառի տակ, որ այդպես զարմացած եք: Ախպեր, ախպար, ապեր,ապե, ապ՝ նշանակում է եղբայր:Կարծում եք թե դա ինչ-որ ուրիշ ազգությո՞ւն է...<br />

Надеюсь, без мата.

Но наверняка что-то глубокомысленное.

[arabaliozian]

Thursday, May 15, 2008

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SHOP TALK

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The trouble with me as a writer is that, unlike our Turcocentric ghazetajis who write about nothing else but massacres, bloodthirsty Asiatic barbarians, atrocities, and unspeakable crimes against humanity, I have an eye only for the dark side of life. I stress the negative in human nature and completely ignore the positive.

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An Armenian poetess calls to inform me she is donating the royalties of her next book to Etchmiadzin. I don’t have the heart to tell her I have been in this business for a quarter of a century and I have never heard of an Armenian writer who has made two cents from royalties. But I suspect she already knows. Armenians have an amazing gift for pretending not to know the obvious.

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In a letter from a friend: "If, as you say, Armenian literature is a dead end, why not give up writing?"

I write for two totally non-literary reasons: to fight boredom and to acquire friends; and with every book I have published, I have acquired a new friend; also (alas!) two, and sometimes even twenty-two, enemies.

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Friday, May 16, 2008

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RANDOM THOUGHTS

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Chekhov: "Love, friendship, respect do not unite people as much as common hatred for something." Our leadership has known this for some time; hence, their unspoken slogan: "There is no business like shoah business."

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What divides a nation is neither theology nor ideology but leaders who consider their own powers and privileges more important than the survival of the nation.

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Where there is an Armenian church you will also find a wealthy dupe with a guilty conscience.

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A fellow Armenian (a white-haired no-nonsense type) knocks on my door, introduces himself, barges in, and demands to know if I am really an atheist. I tell him, I don’t believe in he god of our priests. He is too puzzled by my answer to pursue the matter. What I fail to add is that, the true atheist is he who uses someone else’s crucifixion to make a comfortable living.

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If a man is open to ruin, he will be ruined by success as easily as by failure.

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Saturday, May 17, 2008

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NOTES / COMMENTS

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If we cannot trust experts, historians, religious leaders and politicians on the grounds that they contradict one another, whom can we trust? The answer must be obvious: nobody! Not even our own judgment. We may however mistrust less those who deal in doubts and probabilities as opposed to certainties and dogmas.

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To be against objectivity is to be for deception.

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Love of God and Country become pathological aberrations when they find expression only in hatred for the enemy and fellow countrymen who do not share our hatred.

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Honesty is a career in which the failures outnumber the successes.

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It’s because they want to silence me that I keep talking. On the day they shut up, I will sing my swan song.

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